Wednesday, October 28, 2009

pictureless wednesday

i got nuthin'
no pics and not much new happening in life, but i'm just wodnering - is it normal to question so much??
i think i am being taken on a journey
i think i am being taught that it is important to do what's best for me and my family
i think i'm being taught that it doesn't matter what people think of you
how elementary is THAT?
you learn that in like, grade two don't you?

you know what else i am learning?
i think i am learning that i am a people-pleaser
i think i am learning that i sometime make hasty decisions in hopes to ensure peoples' acceptance of me

why, at 29 years of age, do i give a crap about what people think of me?
don't know
there's probably a lot of answers a shrink would have for me
maybe i should go get shrunk?

until then,
i'll keep trying to figure out what i'm trying to be taught
i think i'm a slow learner


kelly ens said...

i think the older we get (no, i'm NOT saying we're old...we just aren't 14 anymore), life gets more complicated and uncertain. so i think it's normal to question a lot.

yes, this people pleasing personality can be a bit of a curse. i think i've improved from when i was younger, but it's tough, hey? the people that REALLY matter are your beautiful little family! :)

Anonymous said...

I think that you are the best judge of what is good for you and your little family..take the time you need to sort it out... and ask yourself... in 15 years, when they are grown into young women, will you have done all you wanted to do for them? for you? for Jim? I know you will find all the right answers.. and dont worry what we all think....
love you...
sorry you are having a hard time these days...