flutters and beats

...two things that have caused me to smile as of late!!

i have been waiting to hear baby B's heart beat for WEEKS now!!! I thought i would be able to at my last last midwife's appt. but i was only 10.5 wks and she wasn't as intent as i was on finding it...stating it's too unlikely, but she'd give it a "try"

so then i had to wait until my next appt...4 weeks away!!!! so wait i did! and wait...and wait...and then the day came...and then, 2 hours before my appt, my midwife called and canceled!!!!

Jim was soo funny! He said "Can she even DO that?!"

So...then I had to wait...again...for another 5 days....

i'm not too sure why this was SO important to me...but i really felt like it was that ONE THING that would make it all real!! i doubt that makes sense to anyone seeing as how i had already had an ultrasound....

but the entire first trimester goes by so "silently" - aside from morning sickness - that it's hard to "know" if anything is really "happening"!

anyhow...that appt came and went and i finally heard the heart beat...and cried! i was so completely relieved!

it was the most incredible, miraculous, encouraging, beautiful, cute sound i have heard in a long time!!

and i have smiled every time i have thought about that moment!

the flutters have also started to be detectable....and had been PRIOR to me hearing the heart beat, but i didn't want to admit it until i KNEW that everything was "okay"...just a weird way for me to guard my heart a little longer, i suppose!?

but now i KNOW...and now i can admit...this baby's movin'!!!

so...that's all for now...just wanted to share my latest excitement with you!